September 2010
1 post
I don't want this
I don’t want this.
Put it far away,
Where fishes swim so pink and deep.
I don’t want this.
Take it back,
To where stars climax in the darkness.
I don’t want this.
It’s too heavy,
This pulsating rock of confusion.
I don’t want this,
This fear of you.
I don’t want this…
But… Oh, God… I do.
February 2010
6 posts
Subtext
Me: I don’t get it. I’m not eating after 7 and I’m working out 3 times a week. Why do I weigh more than I ever have in my life?
(Subtext: “) Jenn: Well, you’re older than you’ve ever been.
(Subtext: You’ll get fatter as you get older. And, I’m not fat, so I’m not concerned about your issue. In fact I will always be hot and will never have to...
Where are all my
tumblr peeps?
Oh. I get it. You’re probably out experiencing actual life.
Unlike me. With a flaming throat for the sixth night in a row. Alone in my apartment.
Yeah, that’s me.
Resemblance?
A judge of the thespian festival named Zana told me that every time she sees me she thinks of this painting by Botticelli. She says I look exactly like this woman.
I don’t see it.
Do you?
I'm just a girl in her own world
So I found a little tidbit that I wrote a long time ago. I thought I’d share it here. Because… why not?
“I’m just a girl… in her own world… hoping for a miracle or two… that someone loves me… no one hates me… and I always know the truth…
If this is impossible, maybe its time to fly… fly… fly away… to my own hiding...
January 2010
19 posts
WatchI love Michael! I’m totally seeing him up close March 13th!
A Convo with CooRay
AKC: Don't know- but omg- I just saw this commercial and there was like 20 puppies shoved on top of each other in a cage
AKC: and other animal abuse stuff
CooRay: Sounds adorable, but I assume it real small cage, so now it sound quite tragic :(
AKC: No, like, piled on top, like one's nose was sticking out the top bc it had no where else to go
AKC: And it was showing this bulldozer and this cow was being like ran/shoved over
AKC: I mean, I don't like cows but that was so sad
CooRay: Awwwww :'(
CooRay: :(
CooRay: Nooo!
...
AKC: Kay I was real upset but I'm better now
AKC: I can't watch that. I have this string that goes right from my heart to my tears and a lil tug opens the floodgate every time I see stuff like that
CooRay: It sound so sad!
CooRay: Oh! What jenn say about gettin a doggy?
AKC: And when I saw this lil girl who lost 11 family members in the earthquake and anderson cooper asked her "have you always been brave?" And she was like "I was always brave and I will always be brave"... Even though she had 0 family left. No brothers or sisters or mom or dad or aunts or cousins.
AKC: Floodgate opened so hard when I saw that
CooRay: Omg!!!
AKC: I guess that's why I'm collecting this stuff. I keep thinking about her
CooRay: She a Haitian girl?
AKC: Ya
AKC: And its like, I look at my tiny apartment and my fridge full of food and my closet full of clothes and all my shoes and my friends and my family
AKC: And I think, how could I want more?
AKC: That girl had none of this. She had a pink dirty polo and a pair of shorts with holes and gashes in her leg and a broken ankle
CooRay: :'(
CooRay: Poor lil girl
CooRay: Poor haitian community at that :(
CooRay: I got my bag of clothes down stairs ready to be delivered to em
AKC: I don't mean to depress you
AKC: And thanks for ur donations
AKC: I know someone will love them
CooRay: Lol no its fine.
CooRay: I feel better about myself actually
AKC: I just speak from my lil string-pulled heart
AKC: I know, me too!
CooRay: Your heart's like a marionette
AKC: It is!
AKC: But, its like I've been sad here alone for the past few weeks, but I shouldn't be!
CooRay: :p
CooRay: Yaya
AKC: I have so much and I have so much ahead of me
CooRay: Ya 3-|
AKC: I mean, we both do. We have careers and marriages and maybe small ones and yummy chocolate foods to eat!
CooRay: Lol @ the yummy chocolate foods
AKC: I know
AKC: I'm real excited about that
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“Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier.”
– Mother Teresa (via enquotations)
“You know that place between sleeping and awake, that place where you can still...”
– J.M. Barrie (via justbesplendid)
This is probably unreasonable...
But Jenn is just a bitch sometimes. And she doesn’t care. She says what she wants and she does what she wants always. She is taking the “Inner Bitch” Calendar a little seriously.
Is it because I want to be like her? I loaded “Bachelor” on my computer during Conan and she looked at me and said “I don’t want to watch Bachelor with you.” I was...
Trying to find a cake for Jenn
But
1) She won’t eat it.
2) I probably will mess it up
3) She won’t like it.
4) I have to use the ingredients I have here because I don’t have a car.
5) She and I have been not getting alone via passive aggressive methods.
6) Thus, my birthday cake love isn’t so strong.
Me: Oh cool. Andy Karl is Fiyero in Wicked soon.
Jenn: …. *pokes at her eye*
Me:...
Do you ever...
just want more?
Like, not for yourself. Right now, I feel like I need to be doing more. More for my friends. More for my community. More for people who need what I can give.
I want to volunteer at an animal shelter and help build houses for Habitat for Humanity. So that’s what I’m gonna do.
August 2009
9 posts
When you really care for someone, you're willing...
itsamazing:
(via jessicachu:twothirty)
Hurts so many...
Had an awesome night with Stella. But now I’m home and…well… it really hurts. Why? I mean, what can I do? Nothing. And it’s getting more frequent by the week. Maybe it’s the stress before the big move, but something’s gotta give. I mean, people aren’t supposed to hurt like this. I could pop some pills, but I don’t think it’ll work. But it...
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"a great love that's not meant to be..."
It’s funny. We never know that the other people around us often have the exact same thoughts and feelings as us.
Like today. Josh told me that when he saw his ex-girlfriend a few weeks ago, he just wanted to kiss her. So I read to him that beautiful passage I found in my book, “Nothing grieves so deeply or pathetically than one half of a great love that’s not meant to be.”...
“Didier, trying to warn me, trying to help me or save me, perhaps, had said once...”
– “Shantaram” p. 373
“It’s all about finding a man who can handle her brand of crazy… and a woman who...”
– It’s UnBeweavable
Top 10 Reasons Gay Marriage is Un-American
itdoesnmakesense:
jesussavesispendd:
savagemike:
Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry...
July 2009
21 posts
Tiffany & Co. →
Via It’s UnBeWeaveable!”
“I do take my work seriously and the way to do that is not to take yourself too...”
– Alan Rickman - Biography
“You know the sad—but true—cliche that says that folks in entertainment are...”
– Never Piss Off David Letterman - David Letterman - Gawker
Vomit vomit vomit
Apparently my lesson has not yet been learned. After several drinks, I got sick. And poor Jenn had to clean it. And there was a lot.
Jenn told me this morning that I kept saying, “Bryan hates me.” Once even while I was sitting next to him. And Jenn told Bryan to tell me that he didn’t hate me. So he told me that he did hate me. And I was apparently upset, so Bryan told me that...
Oh my
God!!!
The other night, we were at Applebees and someone mentioned the time and said that we should make a wish.
My wish was that Bryan would want me.
And I thought it was stupid to wish that, because…
But after tonight’s text messages… Jenn is going to smack him, then smack me, then dump both of us. After some drunken accidental hand holding and snuggling last night, we...
The Audition
No callback so far… I have to force myself to be like my alter-personality (as Adelaide has become) and say “Whhhateva.” I did my best to impress the director and he wrote something down, but I just don’t know. If I get a chance at a callback, I know I’ll get a part because I am awesome at cold readings. I can just see words on a page and act them out without a...
Most people won't ever feel this...
The stage is a magical character in my life. He picks me up and makes me feel like I’m something special. He gives me butterflies. He gives me a high. He is an essential element to my existence.
If you’ve never been on stage, then you probably don’t get that.
Most people are afraid of the stage. They would rather walk off a building than perform on a stage. They will never feel...
“Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words. Keep your...”
– (via johnerick.)
-Gandhi. (via itsamazing)
It sucks...
to be me. I totally told Bryan that I missed him via drunk text.
Oh wait. It gets better. I also told him that during my sad scene onstage, I re-feel that night he broke my naive little heart more than a year ago to feel Adelaide’s hurt. So basically, I use the hurt supplied by him to feed my scene. It’s the truth, but that wasn’t something he needed to know.
And right now I...
Amanda Canupp (n.) -
also known as AK Canupp, Mindy Kay, Amanda Kay Canupp
1. a neurotic, dramatic 20-year-old with daddy issues, a compulsive need to please, an attention span comparable to a spoon, and a love for all things theatre
2. a 20-year-old female currently residing in Inverness, Florida, about to embark on a new life in Orlando
3. a shitty daughter who owns a very gassy dog named after his missing...
